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This Lack Of Self Control...
...I Fear Is Neverending
Created on 2004-09-17 00:20:17 (#4559470), last updated 2009-06-29
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| Name: | Jena |
|---|---|
| Website: | Wedding Website! |
So who am I? Well, to cover the basics...my name is Jena. I'm a 21-year-old college student attending The University of North Carolina in Greensboro, majoring in Psychology. I'm engaged to the most wonderful guy (Andrew) in the world and I haven't ever been happier. I feel lucky every day, even with the little ups and downs. He proposed on October 5, 2008 and we're getting married on October 5, 2009. :) I am currently unemployed. Mostly because of the hypocritical bullshit that was my last job (Chick-fil-A). While I am worried about money and the future, I haven't been happier in 4 years...Chick-fil-A was, and is, poison. I'm clinically depressed. I cry a lot. I'm kind of psycho when it comes to Andrew and other girls. I tend to take things to heart and get hurt. I'm sensitive. I have an eating disorder, but its sometimes hard to pinpoint exactly what you would call it. ED-NOS perhaps. I go through cycles of bingeing to severly restricting (600 calorie limit). At the moment? I'm trying to normalize things. Eating disorders are energy-consuming, life-altering disorders. I just want to be okay with food, with eating. But at the same time, I want to be thin. I've gained 40lbs since I started dating Andrew and I've never been more disgusted with my body. I'm trying to keep it healthy...but my biggest obstacle right now is to stop bingeing every other day. Current Stats: Height: 5'1" CW: - BMI: - HW: 240 LW: 135 Goals: 145 - Oct. 5. So you want to add me? Well, I'm not looking for a huge friends list full of people that never comment on my journal. If you want to add me, then at least commit to commenting occassionally. If you want to add me, make sure we have at least three interests in common. Add me, comment on my "friends only" post, and I'll probably add you back. Don't even THINK about adding me if you can't handle daily updates about eating disordered thoughts/behaviors and general whining. This is where I vent. To put a face to the name... (old) |
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